I’ve lost you
The you that understood
The you that listened
The you who said I could

Do anything I dreamed
You are not who I originally deemed
The love in my life
The apple of my eye

You are lost to me

There is a selfishness I feel
In this grief of you
For you are not lost to yourself

You are being found
You are becoming the one you desired
You are being adored by all
You are becoming more on fire

For God.

But I am losing you in the process

You are becoming more His than mine

It’s in the way we speak
It’s in the way you leave
It’s in my heartbreak
For you have given for me to take

Yet, I want more than I can have.

I want you back.
I want you again.

To listen
To be
To know me
To remember me

But you are lost to me,
And I am forgotten by you.

For there is a greater work to be done
There’s a worth in your life
There are a people who need to know God
For we are running out of time

Yes, you are His and not mine.

Lord, help me to let go
Help me to let her go
From my hands to yours
Oh! My heart is hidden in hurt

She has not seen
The grief within me
The tears I have shed
As I lay down my head

Yet, who am I to speak
When you’ve done the same with me?

You have called me from birth
To proclaim love to the earth

You have torn me from hands
That wanted to keep me in their plan

You have rescued me from the dust
You have taught me how to trust

I feel not jealousy nor hate
Just a sadness, so intimate

Is this what Mary felt for her son?

He is Messiah
And Saviour to mankind
The greatest of teachers
Emmanuel and El Shaddai

She could remember a time
When he was her son
When he would climb and play
When he would laugh and run

He would then teach multitudes
She came for miles to see
But he said who is his mother?
What? Who was she?

He said his sister and brother
His family, His mother
Were those who did the will of
His heavenly Father

We are not more capable of keeping
God’s people from being sent
Then we could keep God
Confined to a tent

I’ve lost you to Him
But isn’t that a win?
For you’ve outgrown your skin

You are flying.

I watch you soar higher and higher.

I stand.

I stare.

I hold my heart.

I shed a tear.

Here I am, letting you go
This is my song
You will never know

I’ll miss you
I love you

God, take care of her.

He will be enough for you.
He will be enough for me.

Till the next chapter,
Katya